All my bags are packed, I'm ready go to...
I mean, I am. My stuff is packed, my loose ends have all been tied up, physically everything is good to go. But in my mind, I'm just going on vacation. And I suppose, if things work out as planned, I will be. But it's the not knowing that's making this so difficult. I didn't get into teacher's college (again), so that helped clear up some of the uncertainty, but now it's just going to be a matter of getting my paperwork in order, finding a job, and getting everything cleared with Immigration (who hopefully will have forgotten about this whole messy situation in a few weeks), and I have no idea how long that will take. I've got some serious threats hanging above my head that have given me a month (or a tiny Englishwoman will be descending upon Canada and unleashing her wrath upon my head, among other things haha), and I really hope it won't be much longer than that. I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to do at home with no job, no money, and nothing to do because everyone I know has a job or school or something important to do. Brush up on my Korean, I guess. Haha, Young Jin was making fun of me today when I told him that's what I planned on doing while I was home. He was like, "you aren't going to learn Korean while you're home. You've lived here for almost two years and you still speak less Korean than a five year old. Good luck." Such support. T_T
Anyway, the past week here has been one of the best and worst of my lives. Last Friday I went out to dinner with all my co-workers from English Doctor for a proper farewell party. Everyone came out...all the foreign teachers, all the Korean teachers, even the secretaries, Do Young and Young Eun, made it! Jinny's son Hye Sung (Ben) was there as well, and he is one of this year's kindy students, so it was nice to get to cuddle with him a bit and say goodbye...he's SO cute. Julie's husband came, and he's so hilarious. I got to meet Jinny's husband as well because she got hammered and he had to come pick her and Ben up haha. Do Young's husband even came to join us later at No Block, which was nice because I hadn't seen him since their wedding last fall. Anyway, I was doing just fine all through dinner, but then Jinny leaned over to me and said, "Erin, I'm really sad that you're leaving, because I've seen the way your students learn and develop, and they improve so quickly. You're such a good teacher, and I'm really disappointed you have to go, because I was really glad that Ben was going to have the opportunity to learn from you." And that just set me off. I started bawling and I couldn't get stopped. Everyone was making fun of me and laughing and I was just a wreck haha. But I finally got it under control and we left dinner and went to No Block and then to Volume, where we met a bunch of my friends, and we had an awesome night (with only a few more tears haha). Then on Saturday I met up with friends in Nowon again and had another awesome night. Sunday Eric came over to our place to hang out, and then we went to meet Chris in Nowon, and we had a couple beers and played some darts. Monday Ashley and I went to Ses' place to hang out, but then she and I decided we should go to Nowon, and we met hung out at No Block and drank with Rain, one of the bartenders, and his friend Dae Sung, who was some sort of ultra-wealthy businessman who bought us all our drinks and a fancy cheese tray and was really nice. Tuesday and Wednesday were spent packing and trying to organize two years of my life into two little suitcases. Thursday Julie invited Ashley and I to her house for a party, which was held in honour of her husband getting a promotion at work. Four of his co-workers were there, and they all spoke English fairly well, and were all half in the bag by the time we showed up. They were hilarious. One guy (who was like 35) was quite enamoured with me and I think, had I wanted to, I probably could have convinced him to marry me this weekend so I could stay in Korea haha. The others were really nice and funny, and we had a great time. Julie made us some kind of delicious chicken thing, and we all just drank beer and played a drinking game and ate, and then we went to Nowon to a Noraebang and then to No Block for a bit (before Ashley and I had to bail because it was like 1am haha). Friday night everyone got together in Nowon again, and I got a chance to say goodbye to most of my friends. Then last night Ashley, Ses, Laura, Young Jin, Eric, Andy, Weston, Ken and I went to Itaewon for one last filthy night out in the Special Foreigner District. There was some major tears and at one point I was ready to just go home and cry myself to death, but I powered through and the rest of the night post-bawlfest was amazing and I had a blast.
Tonight Ashley and I met one last time with the boys (Andy, Weston, Eric and Young Jin) for dinner. It was fun but bittersweet -- Andy won't be here when I get back. His school went bankrupt and he's had enough...he's leaving next Tuesday. So that was a particularly sad goodbye. Then I saw Ses and Laura briefly and said my goodbyes to them, said bye to Na-Na on my way past the Etude House (she was working), and then later Eileen came over to give me a book and a movie she'd borrowed, so I got a chance to hang out with her one last time, since she won't be here when I get back either. Now my suitcases are packed and waiting by the door, Ashley is coming to the airport with me tomorrow, and then I'll be on my way to Tokyo and then on to Toronto.
So, Korea, it's been amazing. These past 20 months have been the best of my life. I can't wait to come back.
And to everyone at home, I will see you tomorrow, strange and unexpected as it is.
Oh, and I got the most amazing e-mail from Joon, one of my students, today: ( To Erin teacher... )

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